This morning woke up around 4.00 AM with a general bad feeling, experienced often in my gut. I am very aware of it now when it happens and can feel it instantaneously. When I have that feeling, I am not moving, I am slowed down, almost paralysed, overwhelmed by life, almost depressed and down.
The moment I noticed it, I told myself how lucky I am in my life, and recalled all the great things and people that filled it. Being grateful brought tears to my eyes, I felt better and I prayed and asked for support to find a way to reinvent myself and to get on with my business life and my need to fulfill my greatest need right now which is to make a difference in the world and to be the change we need to be in the world NOW. That famous sentence that we see everywhere it seems!
An idea came to me yesterday while picking up litter in the park (I filled a huge black garbage bag and some…) was to call a local politician and see if with their cloud we could get a team going that takes the responsibility to clean parks on an going basis and educate people about the need to recycle and to feel good about doing something for the higher good. Reading this paragraph again makes me wonder why do I need a local politician’s cloud, organizing a grass root movement can happen otherwise too? Will explore that thread further…
While I was picking up litter from the park I felt one with the Earth. The Canada geese normally moving out of my way when I walk through the park, stayed there. An image came to me, they are pecking the earth for worms and grass and insects and I am pecking the earth for styrofoam, plastic bottles, broken glass from beer bottles, golf balls, and plastic bags and plastics bags without an end in sight…. I was doing that out of care for the geese, so they wouldn’t accidentally ingest it and get sick. And I was doing it just for me, so that when I am walking through the park I see the unending beauty of nature without the soreness of a piece of plastic sticking out here and there.
That brought up the reflection of ownership of land, property and boundaries. Boundaries created by our ego, this is mine, do not trespass, private property, perpetrators will be prosecuted. Shouldn’t we reassess this whole concept of land ownership, this separate little part of paradise that we do not wish to share with others that we own and protect?
How much happier would we be if we could truly experience our oneness with the land? After all we are made up of the same building blocks, we all came from the stars back then after the Big Bang. The land was there before us and will surely be there after us, we will go back to the land when we decay and nourish the next growth of spring with the remnants of our minerals.
Following the trail of litter in the park made me discover areas I would never have dared to go. A lingering feeling in my soul wondering can I go there, is it safe, will I not sink into the mud so close to the pond, perhaps I’ll get wet or my shoes dirty or what else could possibly happened down there by the pond, where the geese nest and the new reeds sprout from? What could happen… The best way to find out is to step out and check it out, breaking through the lingering underground, semi-unconscious feeling of fear of the unknown, taking a risk and check it out….
Only to discover that beyond that boundary of fear ly freedom and oneness, the connection to the land, to the universe and all our relations. When I go there I am informed of my actions to take from within, from a connected part of me to the whole where my creative ideas can flow and my creative urge can manifest, free of the constraints of the shoulds and shouldn’ts of my mind. Free from the dutiful and responsible person I was programmed to become. Not all bad, it seems, but a balance is required.
Freedom calls forth from this lingering semi-conscious feeling of needing permission to step out. Permission to do what ? Permission to connect to my soul and my purpose, to the creative urge that pushes me through the thickest walls of fear, stepping into the unknown into the archetype of the Divine Feminine that knows from inside how to care for the needs of the land and its people and all its relations.
Respect the right to be of all our relations, the trees, the birds, the fish, the animals. We are all part of the same Whole and need to live in balance in a sustainable way for the highest good of all. Protecting our small little territory will only put up the walls a little higher. How could we learn again to care for the Whole of Earth, its people of all races and socio-economic origins, all its relations?
That is the question of the day. Today is EARTH DAY.
